Instructions Withheld: October 6, 2023

The problem is power,

realized in the shower.

Control-

I can’t cede,

a dangerous cycle-

I can’t repeat.

An anxiety stirs,

in the midst of my purrs-

I yearn,

for love to burn passionately,

rationally.

I think-

rewind to pass time.

I analyze-

to not fantasize

prioritize.

My cries,

can’t hide,

my real life.

I feel like stability,

humility.

To see me,

more than,

history-

the ability,

for real,

comfortability.

I digress-

it’s useless,

to do this,

we kiss.

Feelings I crave,

the need to deprave,

I cave.

Intimacy-

untraditionally,

my own sexual literacy,

intricacy,

unfolding,

instructions,

withholding,

slowly beholding,

a life unfurling.